Everything is Ecstasy

Before some hours ago, I'd never known Jack Kerouac.
I found him through one of my linkages on the net, and the cupid works through his words.
You're going to be my favourite too now!!
This writing....it was love at the first read for me!
So I'm putting it here, I put it anywhere, it's becoming my mantras now... :))

"I have lots of things to teach you now, in case we ever meet,
concerning the message that was transmitted to me under a pine tree in North Carolina on a cold winter moonlit night. It said that Nothing Ever Happened, so don't worry. It's all like a dream.
Everything is ecstasy, inside. We just don't know it because of our thinking-minds.
But in our true blissful essence of mind is known that everything is alright forever and forever and forever.
Close your eyes, let your hands and nerve-ends drop, stop breathing for 3 seconds, listen to the silence inside the illusion of the world, and you will remember the lesson you forgot, which was taught in immense milky way soft cloud innumerable worlds long ago and not even at all.
It is all one vast awakened thing. I call it the golden eternity.
It is perfect. We were never really born, we will never really die. It has nothing to do with the imaginary idea of a personal self, other selves, many selves everywhere: Self is only an idea, a mortal idea. That which passes into everything is one thing.
It's a dream already ended.
There's nothing to be afraid of and nothing to be glad about.
I know this from staring at mountains months on end.
They never show any expression, they are like empty space.
Do you think the emptiness of space will ever crumble away?
Mountains will crumble, but the emptiness of space, which is the one universal essence of mind, the vast awakenerhood, empty and awake, will never crumble away because it was never born."

Positive Sounds

My Muxtape has been up for some time already, but I have not been able to complete it. There are currently eight songs up on ouli.muxtape.com, and all of them are the songs that build positive mood on me. So if I feel gloomy or alike, these songs are my medication :-D

Here they are:
1. Idan Raichel - Bo'ee
2. Bali Lounge - Angels Of The Island
3. Lamb - Softly
4. Neffa - Passione
5. Jason Mraz - I'm Yours
6. Mark Sholtez - If You Were A Song
7. Paolo conte - Vieni via con me
8. Lamb - Gorecki

Of course, Bo'ee is there, I love that song very much, very uplifting.
Peccato che the Angel Of The Island is not as good as the one in the Bali Lounge CD version.

Photo by recursion_see_recursion

World Just Needs a Little Space

I've been having SocialVibe thingies up on my site for months now, and I am glad to do so because if a little space on my blog can help others in need, then it is something worth to do.

Of course I don't donate my money directly to the cause that I chose, instead advertisers do that.
I don't get money either from embedding those SocialVibe sponsored ads of course.
So what is so cool to have widgets that don't make money to the blogger? We can do our donations anywhere, don't we?

Well, here are my reasons:
1. I think the ads there are eye-catching, and I like 'handsome' things :-D
2. My blog can do something for the world, not just money sucker :-D
3. Sometimes there are sponsors who give perks, and the giveaways are cool and hip products, though I never win so far :-P

I chose Poverty and Hunger as my first cause, then when the earthquake and nature disaster hit Myanmar and China, I changed my cause into Disaster Relief. I am back now with hunger issue by joining the cause World Food Programme. I think hunger and poverty are two interconnected problem of the World, and if you come to www.poverty.com, you can see the real-time counter of hunger deaths. As I am writing now the number at this second has reached 983. I know it's sad.

If you like to help the World, you can join SocialVibe through their site or under my referral. Either way, choose to join, there are a lot people, especially children all over the World need your helps.




Photo by Unhindered by Talent and angela7dreams

This is a Smile, a Big One

I kept thinking about the apple of my eyes.
I talked to Him
I visualised my precious one.
I chose to believe positive things and chant only love.

Two days had since passed when it happened finally.
I know I cannot thank You only because of this, but I want to say so...Big Thanks Lord!! and I'm gonna keep doing so.

In a desert land He found him,
in a barren and howling waste.
He shielded him and cared for him;
He guarded him as the apple of His eye,

Deuteronomy 32:10

Green Love

I adopted Green Love three days ago
I was told to feed it once every three days
and this morning I did it for the first time.
I hope it'll survive

Being blessed

That's what Holy Friday makes me think.
What if I were not born Christian?
It would be harder for me to understand about Jesus.
Even I was born and am Christian, His lifestyle and His life story is still hard for me to follow and understand.
If not because of His Love, I would have lost my faith.
He died for our sins so we who believe in Him can live, He didn't come for Christian, He came for those who believe in Him.


I'm happy, I managed to push myself to attend Holy Friday congregation this afternoon though I was a bit late and didn't get a nice seat. There were at least 3000 people who attended our Church congregation this afternoon and it was not held in Church building but in one of a big national sport centers in Jakarta.
This evening one of our TV stations broadcast "The Passion of The Christ" and again with no ads at all. That movies affirms me that I'm blessed already.

I'm already blessed, and I still want moreeeee!! :-P
Well....human...
Anyhow, hope you can feel the Love of Christ too in your life.

Photo by midiman

A Valentine Campaign

A comment that I just received tonight for my "Play to save Shelter Pets" posting has reminded me about it. I went to visit the site and played the trivia, and this time I signed up myself there.
I just realised that the site name is Experience Project, and it's not only about those misfortunate shelter pets, but there are a lot more projects.

One of them is about More to me campaign. Probably lots of you have heard about people, especially models who are very skinny because they're pressed by their societies, and this even has taken some young souls out of this world forever. Very sad.

So if anyone want to have a more meaningful Valentine celebration, please think about those young girls' who have lost their souls because of the wrong perception of beauty.

Support programs promoting healthy body image for girls. SIGN NOW to get the attention of policymakers!

Happy Valentine to you all and don't leave the shelter pets too this valentine ;-) play the trivia for free to help them. Grazie

When My Heart Finds Christmas

Nothing is more special about Christmas than the Christmas itself, not the old Santa Claus, not the presents, not anything else because Christmas is already the biggest present given by God. I didn't have Christmas wish list but I did made some wishes when I attended a Christmas celebration of my Church on 20th December.

Some of my Italian friends whom I chat with on Christmas Eve were expecting Christmas dinners with their families but no such tradition in my family, and I chatted 'til around 1am -which means Christmas day already.

Got awakened by a massive noise thunder around 3am, I woke up saying God, and I don't know why I thought about doomsday directly. Then I told God something like ooh.....please God this is your birthday, and I got back to sleep :-D

Now, on officially Christmas day. Something did happen. One of my wish did come true and it means a lot to me. Thanks Jesus, I love that surprise. Still, nothing is more special than the Christmas itself.

And this is a wonderful song for the jolly holly season from Harry Connick, Jr I pray on Christmas

Mixaloo

Mixaloo invite finally arrived in my inbox last night. I make my mix this morning and here is my first Mixaloo. These songs probably don't match each other, since I just put all those songs that currently have been occupying my minds. No more saying....just listen.....to my current mood.....

On Evil

I've just started Emule-ing!
Yes I was ages behind about this cos I didn't have fast connection.
Now that I own it, Fabio one of the nicest gurus (wow) on the net taught me the nitty-gritty of open source, which for me, Emule!!

Since I've been on evil -possessed by some ghost on Pluto- yesterday I searched emule for some spiritual sugar healing songs.
Here they are queuing on my player now:

Bittersweet Faith – Bitter:Sweet
Love Song – The Cure
Deep Inside of You – Third Eye Blind
Foundations – Kate Nash
Falling From Grace – The Gentle Waves
Don't Explain – Billie Holiday
The Ballad of Tom Jones – Space feat. Cerys of Catatonia
For Once in my Life – Harry Connick Jr. <3
Too lost in You – Sugababes
I Miss You – Bjork
Godsend – DC Talk
No One – Alicia Keys

Dangerously Beautiful

Indonesia Dangerously Beautiful is a sexy move created as a counter measure against travel warning to Indonesia. Ahh...not only sexy, but smart too :-D, grâce au créateur.

Ooh....and it's wearable too!! It's nice if many people abroad wear that t-shirt or use the bag, so more people will know how dangerous is Indonesia. Dangerously beautiful!!

A Pot of Gold

I was trying to search the answer from some books.

But I know meeting him would be the right way.
I'm glad I trusted my heart, calmed my mind and ignored my redundant 'what if'.

God speaks through different mediums, I just have to stop getting busy with my thinking, and listen.


At the end of a rainbow there's a pot of gold.
My path surely will have many colours that I don't all like,
But a pot of gold..... is rewarding!

Cos it will be my true self, my factory, my own company.

Happy Resurrection Day of Jesus

Sunny day here today after the overcast and rain on last Good Friday, as if it portray those long ago scenes.

Religiously saying, I feel blessed!
What if I were not Christian from the day I was born?
What if my Great Grand parents were not Christians?
What would I think of His wonderful love then?
Fairy tales?

What would make me interested in Him?
Those thoughts emerged during the sermon hearing.

The idea of God who suffered for His humans....His bountiful love...the Love credo.
That sure would attract me.

Whatever I was and I am, I should feel blessed being one of the chosen.
What will I be?
The simple plan, will stay being amongst the chosen.

Found it!

In her shoes

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
not fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

Art Attempt

I have felt privileged since last Saturday when an invitation of Sri Hadhy's opening painting exhibition arrived for me.
I know I probably got it because I once, though only for a day, joined his course.
He, one of the notable painters from Indonesia, will have his painting exhibition next week, and it seems he invite all of his ex-/pupils to attend the opening ceremony.

Leet phoned me about Sri Hadhy some days ago when she saw her friends' painting exhibition at Hotel Nikko. Apparently one of them was Sri Hadhy's student. Leet and I have been dreaming to live for and from painting. What a coincidence that I got that invitation on Saturday.

That only day when he saw me doing a sketch, he eulogised my sketch! :-D
Well...though it was probably just his encouragement as a teacher to his student, it did and does make me proud because he did not say that to my two friends.

Maybe I do have a little talent on art, but I never really practise it, unlike Leet.
There is this axiom that says that success is about 1% talent and 99% attempt or practice.
My problem is, I have too much wants that lead me nowhere at the end. I'm so easy to like something.

I love Van Gogh's brush stroke. I like Klimt's rich and sensual paintings. I like Basquiat's puzzled paintings. I'm taken by Edward Hopper's capture of aloneness. I want to make pop art drawings like Lichtenstein. I admire some paintings and drawings on deviantart. I dream to be like each of them, not just one of them :-D
C'est terrible, n'est pas.

Anyhow, these are my latest attempts on paintings.
Hey you, sorry if I used the design that I made for you ya ;-) I like it so much. Don't worry, I mask your face and the word on your heart so it won't reveal you.

If my fingers could successfully materialise the picture that I saw on my head, this picture could have been much better.
He wanted me to make a tattoo design that depicts yin-yang concept. Him with his feminine and masculine sides blending, but that doesn't mean he's a sissy. He's very straight.

I feel that he's a good person, full of spirit, loves life, loves women and loves his ‘favourite sport' ;-)
He has a very artistic face, so I made it as part of my design. Hence I decided that his tattoo would be him with my tattoo design that shows his passions: woman, nature, beauty, and kindness, all over his thorax and his hands. I was inspired by a cover illustration of Secret Rendezvous, a novel by Kobo Abe.

These two are just a draft and a remake of the design. He took the original one.
See how I failed the colouring scheme :-(